Today is just one of those days. I've had you on my mind all day, for the past two weeks I've had extra trouble sleeping at night and when I would finally fall asleep, all I have is nightmares. Over and over that morning replays in my head, I'm force to lose you all over again, every time and I swear it hurts even more now than it did on that day.
When it happened I was in shock and too numb to really feel the pain of my heart being torn out of my chest. I wasn't ready to lose you, I wasn't ready to live without you and sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. When the heart decides it is not done feeling, there is no persuading it. The heart is an uncontrollable force; the perfect storm, if you will. It does not forget easily and it wants with the might of a tsunami and it takes and takes and takes until suddenly you look down and you’ve been stripped bare. Every so often the pain becomes a little too much, almost unbearable and I know that makes me weak but I promise myself I was going to be strong.
I love how you simplified my life and made love seem so attainable. Now everyday is an obstacle for me, everyday is a struggle to breathe without hearing your voice or being able to say your name and say I love you. Sometimes I wish I lost my memory if that meant the pain would disappear. . .
Lets talk once more about self confidence, I get it: self-confidence
is challenging to master. It's entirely too simple to fall into a
discouraging rhythm of beating yourself up, because let's be real —
culture isn't always kind. However, it is possible to surmount
the odds and discover a place in which loving yourself comes naturally.
Try your best to tackle these 22 tasks, which promote growth, happiness, success, and wholesome self-love. We're in this together. I believe in you
Source: successmasterycamp.com
1.Stop nit-picking. First and foremost, the endless barrage of
self-criticisms and nit-picking must end. Learn to change the dialogue
in your head! Keep things in perspective — you're only human
(one who makes mistakes once in a while!), and you are good enough. 2.Keep a positivity journal.
To really gear up and switch the direction of your thoughts, try maintaining a positivity journal. This will keep your spirits up and encourage joy and gratitude.
3.Take a break from dating.
Unless you're already in a happy, committed relationship
— which is hard to attain if you're plagued with self-doubt — take a
break from dating. After all, learning to love yourself first is crucial for a fulfilling romantic connection. Carve the time out to
focus on yourself, because you deserve it!
4.Exercise.
It's no secret that exercise boosts your mood, which paves the way for self-love. Not to mention, taking care of your body will recharge your self-esteem!
5.Prioritize what YOU want.
Make a list of the things you love most, and why. Maybe watching Netflix with a bowl of pop corn puts a smile on your face faster than just
about anything (I feel you, girl). Or maybe you find your happy place
when you're doing something else. Prioritize these on a scale of one to ten,
and make a pact with yourself to engage in each and every one by the
end of the week, the month, the year (depending on how big your list
is!).
6.Read a good book.
Books can change your life for the better.
7.Rid yourself of toxic connections.
It's time to ditch the "friend" who
constantly cuts you down with subtle, passive-aggressive barbs. You're
on a journey, and there's no room for toxins where you're headed.
8. Drink less.
It's SO tempting to end a bad day with a
bottle of merlot, but let's face it — drinking isn't the best way to
deal with your problems. Sure, a glass or two here and there is
perfectly acceptable, limit yourself to libations once a week.
9.Learn to enjoy alone time.
Facing alone time
can be intimidating if you're feeling not so good about yourself or
have recently been through a major breakup. Sleeping alone at night
after the end of a relationship is a scary struggle, in particular. But
it's essential that you face your fears and realize you alone are fabulous company. Besides, having extra time to do everything you desire is pretty amazing!
10.Take a vacation.
It's been your dream to visit Dubai for years, but life got in the way and it sort of just fell down the pipeline. Now's your chance to officially make it happen while you're still young and able! Browse Pinterest for travel tips.
Plan your budget. Take the time off of work. Buy the plane ticket! (In
that order, more or less.) Leap on the chance, because you won't always
have it.
11.Eat healthier.
Have you ever felt downright awesome after eating a nutritious meal? We thought so! Putting yummy, healthy food into your body is a simple remedy for self-love.
12.Invest in your career.
Since working is what you do most, put your heart and soul into it! Whether you're content in the field you're in or wish to pave a new career path, discover and establish your passion . . . and work hard. Everyone gets a case of the Mondays from time to time, but if you love what you do, the rewards are abundant!
13.Go shopping.
Hey, who says retail therapy doesn't lift your spirits? No one. Besides, buying clothes that fit well can make all the difference in your self-esteem.
14.Make new friends.
Attend a Meetup
once a week. Show the new girl the best bar in town. Hit up your
neighbor for brunch. Overcoming social anxiety and surrounding yourself with new pals will put you on top of the world, fast.
15.Value your education.
No matter where you're at in your education,
value it! At the risk of sounding nerdy, the learning process is kind of
beautiful especially with all the resources at your fingertips. It's possible to become an expert in virtually anything.
16.Meditate.
When you're stressed AF, try a quick guided imagery exercise. You don't have to be a guru to achieve zen!
17.Care for your appearance.
The skin you're in will last you a lifetime,
so take care of it with a thorough cleaning routine! And make sure
you're always polished for the office. You don't have to go all out with
a smoky eye and contour, but looking presentable, from your hairstyle to the shoes you wear, will work wonders for your confidence.
18.Get a pet.
Maybe it can't be proven that pets help you love yourself, but they
certainly love you. If you're financially stable and crave a living,
breathing cuddle buddy (RIP, huge snuggly teddy bear), consider a furry friend. There's nothing like an adorable animal to greet you at the door every day!
19.Take up a new hobby.
You just got busy with other sh*t. It's never too late to
take up a new hobby, which can be incredibly fulfilling especially if you stick with it!
20.Step out of your comfort zone.
You've always wanted to run a marathon,
but you're worried you won't make it to the end. Lace up your Nikes and
train, lady! It's time to step out of your comfort zone whenever you
can. Breaking out of your bubble will give you a healthy dose of
self-esteem.
21.Organize.
If your room is a mess, your life might be a mess, too. This could be an overstatement, but you'd be amazed by how far a little organizing can go. Not only will things look better, but you'll feel
like everything — big and small — is falling into place, too. So cancel
next Sunday's plans and take the day to clean out your closet literally and figuratively.
22.Answer to no one.
Remember: when it comes down to it, this is your
life, and you should do what you damn well please with it. You can make
your dreams happen; you can become everything you've ever wanted. It
all starts with a little self-love. I really hope this helps you a ton. Your friend, Seema Sammy.
Spring is upon us and I thought why not make a 'spring to-do list' of activities because I live for to do lists. Spring is the perfect season for a fresh start and whether you're newly single or you've been unattached for a while, now's the time to take advantage of your relationship status with these fun activities. Grab your calendar and take a look at these creative ideas for a fun, happily single Spring!
Spring is a time to find out where you are, who you are, and move toward where you are going. -Penelope Trunk
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Here are 13 activities you absolutely must do this spring.
1. Host Sunday Brunch With the Girls
2. Take a Just-Because Road Trip
3. Plant a Garden
4. Spend a Day at the Museum
5. Hit Up Happy Hour With Co-Workers
6. Hike Your City
7. Bake With Your BFFs
8. Spend a Day at the Bookstore
9. Treat Yourself to Fresh Flowers
10. Read a Romance Novel
11. Sign Up For a Dance Class
12. Indulge in a Solo Spa Day
13. Plan a Relaxing Vacation
It's never a bad idea to push yourself out of your comfort zone and see what happens!
Feminism is not here to dictate you. It’s not prescriptive, it’s not
dogmatic. All we are here to do is to give you a choice. Gender equality
is your issue too. Both men and woman should feel free to be strong.
We talk about successful women, famous women, hardworking women,
women who built their own careers, women who stood up for themselves.
But let us not forget about those women who history never mentioned,
those who couldn’t make it far enough to build a career because they
preferred their kids too. Women who, sadly, were never able to stand up for
themselves because society would push them down every time
they try to. Let us not forget about the women who
left so many things to raise a man, and hopefully a very strong woman.
Women who suffered in silence, women who the world took all their energy
and left them with nothing. Women who were forced to give up life to
satisfy a man, and to give birth to another. Women who
slept next to us every night we got sick in, women who cried to the
thought of us hurt, women who worried when you were five minutes late.
Women who gave us our world by giving up theirs.
In honor of international women's day, I decided to shine light on some of the issues we currently face as women. It's very sad that we live in 2016 and yet these issues are prevalent.
-Women are being beaten by their husbands, mistreated by their fathers, and granted no basic rightsby the law. -I still live in a world where child marriages exist, and rapes and sexual harassment are abundant. -I still live in a world where it is okay to kill a woman for the sake of honor killing. -I still live in a world where girls don't have education granted as widely as it is for boys. -I still live in a world where a man's opinion matters more than that of a woman solely because he happens to be a man. To
our mothers, to uneducated women, to women who once suffered, to women
who got burned with acid because they refused to marry the man that
asked them to, women who got raped because this world we live in is a
fucking tragedy, women who their family forced them to keep their mouth
shut because it would “cause a scandal”, women who have nothing, women
who in the eyes of everyone are weak, when in fact; they’re the
strongest. This day is for you, and it will get better. This day is about reminding everyone that all these things
are not okay. This day is about striving for equality of the sexes.
So recently I was asked the dreaded question of this generation "So what do you do for fun?" I had no idea how to answer because every spare moment of my day is spent on social media. I'm still wondering if I should've said "I do social media for fun." Anyways, that's when it dawned on me that I'm a social media addict and a third degree stalker.
I am a social media addict and I don’t care. I love social media and I don’t care if you judge me, I know that’s sad. I love it for real (selfish) reasons like stalking people’s Instagram feeds only so my mouth could hang open at how beautiful their hair/house/body/makeup/cat is.
Signs you’re totally and completely addicted to social media.
1. When you check it first thing in the morning because you’ve
probably miss so much while you were sleeping. It is just a habit we
enjoy while we are waking up.
2. You go out with friends for food and purposefully choose something that looks pretty/healty-ish for an Instagram photo; because obviously you want people to think you’re a flawless, healthy-eating goddess who would definitely choose some avocado on toast over a huge, greasy burger.
3. Your camera roll is constantly full of selfies you’ve never used but can’t delete them – who knows when you might need one?
4. Your “evening routine” is 1. Check Twitter 2. Check Instagram 3. Check Facebook 4. Check Instagram again just in case someone has posted a really great photo. 5. Repeat.
5. When you’ve been away from your phone (by some miracle) for X minutes/hours and you have no notifications. That means the internet has been destroyed and nobody can get in contact with you. It’s not that people actually have lives outside of social media or anything. Nope.
6. You contort yourself into really weird and usually uncomfortable positions to make sure you look as smoking hot as possible in your selfie.
7. You’ve been stalking someone’s Instagram for so long that you’re a good 3 years down their feed and just praying you don’t accidentally like a photo and look like a total creep. Haven’t we all been there?
8. Having no data left and no access to wifi is the worst thing that’s ever happened to anyone. And even worst than that is slow wifi.
9. The highlight of your day is when get an equally eloquent, witty and hilarious Tweet out and it’s bang on 140 characters and you didn’t even need to sacrifice your grammar.
10. Your camera roll is also full of memes and quotes that that you haven’t posted, yet you continue to screenshot more because someday you’ll need it.
So, this is me, holding my hands up and saying I’m totally addicted to social media. It is my form of recreational activity because what is life without Twitter and Instagram.
Wow, oh wow, isn’t it weird when someone is your everything and then becomes a nothing? Shocker. Electrocuted. To be fair, I should've knew what I was getting myself into when signed I signed up for this whole "falling in love business." Should have read the fine prints which states that "Thou shalt become a stranger eventually." I should really pay closer attention to these relation ship contracts.
Seeing you for the first time right where it all started, only now it had ended. You made me fall for you at this very place, you made me trust you, you made me commit to you and in the end you played me and broke my heart beyond recognition like I was just another one on the list.
Self praise is not recommendation but I did so much for you that needs to be acknowledged. I fed you, motivated you, respected you, picked you up when you were down, be loyal to you and you still turned around and cheated on me. Why? Were my feelings not taken into consideration?
I felt my heart quicken, tears welled up in my eyes, tears I swore I wasn't going to spend on you. All along I was being strong; trying to stay sane after you messed me up and I was doing a pretty good job at it for the past week. I barely cry at the thought of you. I occupied my time with TV shows. But seeing you now, at the same spot we met completely destroyed me. How can I be strong when I'm in the presence of my weakness. Tell me!!
Hot, salty tears were flooding my cheeks bringing down my mascara and eyeliner along with it and dripping off my chin. I opened my mouth to say something, anything, but all that came out were deep, gut-wrenching sobs that tore through my chest.
"I can't do this," I told my friend.
I drew in a deep enough breath to say, "I'm leaving, I was not prepared for this!" Gasping and crying, I couldn't stop, not even when my friend hugged me in her warm embrace.
You said nothing, I said nothing.I had so much to say to you. So much unanswered questions. Tori Kelly's song "All in my head" kept pounding through my skull, I needed to know the answers. I was out here representing and holding it down for you while you were embarrassing me and failing to acknowledge my efforts. Was it hard to be loyal? Was it that hard to claim me? What was it about me that made it so difficult to respect, cherish, appreciate and connect with me?
I had no idea I was going to see you today. I simply made plan to have lunch with my friend. I wasn't ready to face you; to see the man who I once thought would never hurt me; who hated to see me cry but who's the reason behind my tears today. For God's sake I spent a part of my life with you that I will not get back; I will never get to be 24 again. All I'm left with are the memories and photographs.
How did you take it all? What did you think when you saw me? What was going through your head? Does it bother you that we once shared everything; down to the towel we dried our skin with (not hygienic) but that's how close we were.
"Breathe" I whispered to myself. I try to convince myself that my heart is not going to explode nor will my lungs collapse. It's hurts, you know. I will not blame myself because I wholeheartedly gave you my all and you were aware of that. I made sure you had the best of whatever little we had. We were new at this but there was one unwritten rule and that was to put each other first before ourselves. It was suppose to be you and I, we were suppose to be apart of the same team; It wasn't suppose to be you and I plus one.
My heart kept racing back to you, to all the memories we shared throughout this year long adventure and if I'm being completely honest, I was hoping that it never ended. From the first time we kissed to the last time we kissed. I remember every single detail. Can you believe it we once share a bed and our lives together and now we can't bare look at each other in the face.
Now you're just this person out there who knows everything about me, from my turn offs and turn ons, if I snore or not, the password to my phone, what I looked like naked, my family, what makes me cry and laugh, shit. Everything! And now we don't even speak...
And so a new chapter began; it was one that I was never prepared for and one that shook my everything. It was the climax in a book called life after the death of self.
We need to have a chat about girl code. Of
course, girl code comes with a long set of both written and unwritten
rules. Just to make sure
we’re all keeping in line, and having each others’ backs because Lord
knows, we could use it. Gentlemen, feel free to ignore this one unless of course you
want to take a sneak peek into “girl world,” and while I can promise
that you may find some of it interesting, I cannot promise that you
won’t leave scarred. Your call!
1. Don’t EVER date your best friends ex boyfriend or crush. Under any circumstance, it never ends well. I have seen too many friendships fall apart because of a guy. 2. Know the difference between cock blocking and protecting your friend. If she is drunk and doesn’t know what she is doing, that is called looking out for her. 3. Let your friend know if her boyfriends is cheating on her. If you know your friend’s boyfriend is cheating on her, Its better for her hear it from a friend who cares, than a random person. Also,she will be furious if you knew all along and didn't tell her. 4. Don’t let your friend out the door looking like a hot mess. Would you want her to let you walk out looking the same? Sometimes when I see some outfits, I wonder whose friends let them walk out like that. Never let your friends leave the house looking like a fashion victim. Tell the truth girls, tell the truth. 5. Be prepared for drama when surrounded by girls. We can be a little dramatic at times, it’s in our nature. 6. Never talk down on your best friend's man. Unless she is the one doing the insulting, in that case you nod and agree. 7. Avoid your friend drunk texting her ex. Don’t EVER let your friend drunk dial or drunk text when intoxicated. She might say something stupid or embarrassing. 8. Back your friend up no matter what. Even if she is wrong. Let her know you got her back no matter what, it will build trust. 9. It is a friend’s duty to hold her friends hair back while throwing up. You don’t want to walk around with a friend that smells like throw up. 10. Always leave a guy wanting more. He will always come back. 11. "That Time Of The Month” Sympathies. Girls are allowed to bitch and complain during the first 3 days of their menstrual cycle. Plain and Simple. 12. No hating on other women that you don’t know. Girls, why do we do this? There is no reason to talk badly about a girl that you saw across the room, no reason at all. She is not trying to steal your friends, or your man, or your job, she’s doing her own thing, now walk over, introduce yourself and the two of you could be BFFs in no time. Or just mind your business and leave her alone. 13. No hating on other women’s success. That’s another thing ladies, we need to stop treating success — whether it’s at work or in relationships — as if it is a zero-sum game. There is plenty of room for all of us on this earth. 14. Presence is required if a friend has been dumped. Unless you are deathly sick or are about to win the $1 million on Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?, If your friend has been dumped, you have to be there. If you’re a really good friend, you’ll be there with pizza and wine. 15. ALWAYS help other girls escape unwanted attention from guys. This can be as simple as dancing with another girl at a club or as difficult as pretending to be her friend in a public place. 16. If a girl looks intoxicated and looks like she needs a friend, be her friend.While the easy route is to point, be judgmental, and tell yourself that it’s not your problem, I am asking at the very least that you go up to her and ask, “Are you okay?” People in this state of mind can easily be taken advantage of in the worst way and that one question can change that possibility. This is the one situation where you are your sister’s keeper. 17. When required, be a wing woman. I know it sucks sometimes because you might not be remotely interested in talking to any of the friends of your girlfriend’s crush, love interest, or whatever, but come on, take one for the team. If they hit it off, your wing woman services will probably not even be needed for a long time, and if they don’t, well, you and your friend can retreat from that crowd soon. 18. “Like” Any New Profile Pics, Selfies And Instagram's post. The easiest way to be a supportive friend is to “like” all of her tagged posts on social media. Every girl needs a fan base, and you are the founder of her club. 19. We Ride Together, We Die Together. At the end of the day, the people who understand you the most and still love you for it are going to be your girlfriends. Treat them the way you want to be treated, appreciate them and show your respect. Remember that and show them some love every once in a while — you’ll never regret spreading a smile. This blog is dedicated to my best friend, Sheena; I cannot thank you enough for all the support and love you show me. Love Always, Seema Sammy.
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